Aunt came over as usual. Brought her family along. Grandma went out with my parent, aunt and her husband slightly before my tuition ended. Came back soon after it ended at bout 6.15. Grandma wasnt feeling well again. She took some medicine then rested. She have not even eaten yet. Maid cooked some porriage for her but she says that she does not have any appetite. She's sleeping now. Just now was listening to her talk. Didnt know what to say. Didnt say anything much back. Know she cant hear it anyway so rather not say too much in case i end up shouting at her. Realise how she's shrunk. Realised how much i love her. Realised how much i need her. Please get well.

It's been a year already. Check-ups at hospitals show nothing wrong. Yet. Why is she still like this.

Hate it whenever she starts vomitting and all. Feel so useless. So scared. Dont wanna lose her. Been thinking bout some stuff lately. Realised even though we live together, i dont talk to her much. Sometimes in a day i may not even talk to her at all. Then today only when it happened again did i realise how i've always took her presence for granted.

Please dont go.